Venting.

Its sad. Sad that I come here to vent. I can’t run to someone and shed all my problems to them and have them fix it. I’m covered in skin and I’m human and I have problems. So many problems, atleast in my eyes. I don’t know where I’m going with my life. It really doesn’t feel good to not be loved. I’m not okay. I act Okay. But Im not okay. I want to be fixed.

I miss love. Being loved. I mean yea, I have friends and family that love me. But I want more. I want someone real, who gets me. I want love. I miss it. And I’m an idiot for thinking about you. I miss real long deep conversations. I miss those moments where everything around you stops and your happy for that very special moment. I miss that. I miss having someone surprise me. I want someone who Goes insane just at the thought of me. I miss something true. Not flings. I dont want a fling. I want to feel complete. I don’t feel that way anymore. I feel hopeless and empty. Its all the same…I want someone to take me for who I am and know I’m upset when I say I’m fine. I want someone to put my hair behind my ear and tell me I look pretty.

I miss my dad. I wish he could talk to me. and I know he is trying..but I keep running. I just cant accept it..because he has hurt me so much.

I dont know me. Who am I?